Relapse....

So I have not blogged since September 7th. So there is a lot to go over.

My 18 month old daughter is BANANA'S....She is in her tantrum stage and everything is the end of the world for her unless I am carrying her. She is lucky she is sooo stinkin cute.

Kylie my 3 almost 4 year old has learned that she can talk back and for the most part she only gets a time out. She picks out her own cloth's but is scared to sleep alone. Sooo she has pushed her way into sleeping in her mommy and daddys bed everynight. It's super fun.....not....she is lucky she is adorable. On a high note she is a really good cuddler!

Finances....Me and the hubster took all of september and documented EVERY penny we spent...including 1.00 on a ballon animal. We also documented how much money I made everyday (I am a waitress and I had never tracked it before) and every other ounce of income we have had coming in. It was amazing the amount of money we spent on going out to eat and random expenses. Granted some were needed like me getting a new pair of glasses and the dog getting it's vaccinations, new tires, oil changes, diapers...you name anything random and I probably bought it in september. That being said, October has not started off great either but now we have the tools and the knowledge to fix it! Wish us luck this month!!

Weight loss....not so much (I am chuckling to myself with embarrassment right now). I did not gain but it feels like I am going to be forever 10 pounds away from my goal. I am an excuse maker and have to admit the excuses are getting the better of me. I had nothing to look forward to, nothing to train for until now (family pictures, new cloths, and an awesome girls maybe couples getaway in Feb). I have discovered I HAVE to have a plan. So here are some rules I made up for myself.

1. Always have my gym bag ready to go.
2. Always have a plan...eating is the most important part of this. I always use a fast meal plan that is so unhealthy for me but if I plan ahead I can make healthy choices.
3. Recruit if I can but do not count on my friends or family helping me through. I have done this in the past and used them not doing the work as my excuse not to do the work.
4. Have fun with it again. I lost 50 and 80 pounds when I was just having a blast with my workouts. 80 pounds with my first daughter was because I wanted to be healthy to have another baby, and 50 now because I want to not only look sexy but feel sexy and I am just not there yet.
5. If you feel it write it. I am such an emotional person and this will help me get out idea's, frustrations, and any other emotion.

That's all I have so far. Tomorrow is day one so wish me luck!!