Monday weigh in

So this past week was a little eye opening. I knew I consumed a lot of calories but it was a struggle. This weekend I did pretty great though. I was a little worried about the scale but when I stepped on the scale I was a pound lighter! 7.4 pounds until my shopping trip. I am trying to be happy about my one pound but I am more worried about my marriage. I guess that since my parents divorced at 6 I have been thinking a lot about it. I am also not an over affectionate person. When I am done fighting I don't need a hug and a kiss to make me feel better. My husband likes to have some form of affectionate display. Lately I have felt like a parent and not a fun loving wife. I am the one that regulates. I hate it. I miss me. I miss the girl that was not over consumed with money issues, self issues, kid issues, and now marriage issues. I get so stressed I get snappy and I guess it's at the husband. I also feel he gets snappy with me and I get defensive. I love him so much. Marriage is hard work everyday and I am willing to fight for it. I want us to get "us" back. We need dates and alone time even if it's just a walk. I need to quit with the constant planning of everything because nothing ever goes as planned. I miss the husband and wish he was cuddling here with me right now :/