Motivation

So I took a break from blogging. I have had some issues with motivation and just didn't know how to deal with it. I have also been having personal struggles that I needed to sort out and it has messed with my head. I have to admit I have turned to food.

At first I felt like I was being punished. When I prayed I sobbed asking what I could do to correct the wrong. My faith was being shaken at its core. I then realized I had been through so much worse. I had lost a child, friends, almost my home, and jobs just to name a few.

I do not have an ideal situation. I live with my in laws, have two kids,I am a waitress, and I have had no idea what to do with my life.

What I do have is a roof, a car that gets me to work and back and is paid for and is safe for my kids, I have a job, my husband has a job, I have two beautiful kids, the greatest friends, and an amazing husband, not to mention a wonderful family.

So why have I been so down lately? Yes I have tons of money issues but I have to remember that millions of people do.

There are so many things that I can not control but my body and what I choose to do with it is not one of them. I have abused my body. I have said it a million times but as i am typing this the abuse stops now.

I am starting a whole new lifestyle and since I am starting from scratch I am also taking my responsibility for our financial situation. No more buying my daughters a barbie every time we go to walmart, going out to eat more then we should (which we had all ready cut back since our daughter is terrible in restaurants), no more buying an outfit at any place just because I have a coupon. My kids have TONS of cloths.

Here is the plan.

I am going to start calorie counting again and going to the gym. On the days I don't go to the gym it's mandatory cleaning for me and if that is not enough I have a treadmill at home. I want to find a half marathon to do and start training. My body is a temple and it's time I start treating it that way.

I am also going to start saving 10% of everything we make and when we need things like a new tire or pair of glasses I am going to have to work extra for that. We will come up with a reasonable budget and a meal/grocery list so we can eliminate random spending. My daughters will learn how to save for what they want so if the want things they will have to help do things like wash the dog, pick up there room, cook dinner, and by they I mean Kylie since Emma is a little young to understand or help.

That is the plan and I am sure it will be tweaked but at least there is an initiative to make things better.