As I have mentioned several times I am TERRIFIED of failing. I quit before I get started or I give up halfway through so I don't have to be let down. This has been the case with my school. I am sure that I am driving all my friends and family banana's with all the switching of my majors just within the week.
I am terrified to do physical therapy even though I know I will be really good at it. School is 3 years longer and very competitive to get in. I feel like I need to be a genius and lets face reality I am far from that. SO I choose teaching. still a scary route because I am not walking across the stage with a job. Teaching although filling for some seems like so much work. I have to hand it to all my friends that are teachers. They are dedicated 10-12 hours a day if not more when they are a coach. I am sure it is gratifying. They do not get paid near as much as they should for their hours. Yesterday though I watched a woman my age cry for what seemed like forever because her job was one that did not make it. She had applied at daycares, and was then applying to waitress....ARE YOU KIDDING ME...I have been a waitress for 4 years now and the last thing I want to do when I graduate is to continue to be a waitress. So with that being said I am taking a huge step into the fear of failure and I am going to give this school thing a real shot in a major I am going to keep secret until the fall. I want to be sure it is the right thing for me and I make the grades I need. Please keep your fingers crossed as I venture into the unknown!
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